downtime
walk out into the night in my sleep, it’s 4am
tell me i could never be the one
silence speaks to me slowly, smoking through the tears
while i’m turning myself out, choking on the years
so hold on, we’ll figure things out,
talk it over and somehow make it through with no doubt
that we’ll drive into the ground
every time i think about you is just another twist of the dagger in my heart
lost in a million years time
guarded by the spaces of your mind
holding onto nothing but stars
scared by the silence of your heart… so quiet
so gone, you’re so gone now
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lazy
2008 WORLD SERIES CHAMPIONS!!!!
To the Tampa Bay Rays and their fairweather fans...

And to Joe Buck, Tim McGarver, all of FOX, ESPN, Fernando Vina, the Baseball Tonight crew, XM Radio and their shitty talk show hosts, and basically everyone outside the city of Philadelphia...

i CAN'T BELIEVE that no one thought this team could win it all--even after a close, but phenomenal game 1 win behind ace cole hamels, a loss in game 2 that was hardly overpowering by the rays, a spectacular and hard-fought victory in game 3, and a total shellacking in game 4. even up until the very moments before resuming game 5, all you idiots were saying that the rays had the momentum and would win in 7. you guys should really take your jobs more seriously as baseball analysts and stop saying what you think will get you ratings. you mistakingly underrated this team, and completely overrated the effectiveness of that rays bullpen. praise david price all you want, but he's got a long way to go before he proves that he's got the right stuff. and god bless the rays for thinking they had the momentum and looking forward to games 6 and 7, all before game 5 was even over!!! anyway, thanks for counting the PHILLIES out of it all post-season long. i look forward to you counting them out of it next season, too.
i went grocery shopping yesterday for the first time in a month. when my parents were here last month, they were concerned about the lack of everything in my refrigerator, freezer, and cabinets. so they took me to the commissary at langley, gave me a shopping cart, and told me to fill it up. naturally, i threw just about every piece of junk food in that place into the cart--not a single vegetable, not a single piece of fruit, nothing with any nutritional value.
well, lately, my energy level has taken a fall. i'm knowledgable enough to know how diets can influence your day-to-day life, but i've just been too lazy to do anything about it... until now. i'm sick of always being tired, feeling sick, doctors telling me i'm overweight, feeling overweight, etc. i've had plenty of success with diets before. it's just a matter of getting into it and clearing that first hurdle.
when i was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, i went on a strict diet of 1800 calories a day. surprisingly, it was pretty easy. that lasted nearly 6 months and i lost almost 20 pounds. but i let up just a little bit, then totally crashed shortly after. i tried that same diet a couple years ago, only to fail miserably. more recently, i've tried the atkins diet with a huge amount of success. but again, once i dropped some weight, i fell off the wagon.
i was going to try the atkins diet again, but after a bit of research, i discovered that a high protein/low carb diet can ultimately lead to kidney problems. there are a lot of conflicting ideas on the atkins diet, but i'm not gonna chance it. diabetics have enough to worry about with kidney problems already.
diabetes.org has a nutrition section with lots of recipes and ideas, and i also have a few books to add variety to my menu choices. also, something i never realized was that the diabetes food pyramid calls for 6 to 11 servings of grains/starches. this was surprising to me since these contain the most carbs. have a look...

mind you, one serving isn't much at all, but it's still surprising. in comparison, the atkins diet would have those types of things at the top of the pyramid.
i've definitely decided to stick to a plan more suited to a diabetic, but i'm not going to be calorie counting as much. i mean, i won't be eating 5,000 calories a day, but i'm gonna use my discretion at first and see how that goes.
so, what's my diet going to consist of? well, here's what i'm gonna try for the next week or two...
breakfast:
1/2 english muffin with margarine
coffee with splenda
morning snack:
glucerna shake/bar
lunch:
sandwich on whole wheat bread, OR salad, OR dinner leftovers
fruit
afternoon snack:
glucerna shake/bar OR cheese
dinner:
meat entree
vegetables
dessert:
no-sugar added ice cream, OR bran cereal with splenda
evening snack:
glucerna shake/bar
that might look like a lot of food, but as everyone knows, the key is to eat a larger number of small portion meals, as opposed to eating a fewer number of large portion meals. that'll help the metabolism get going.
the next thing i need to do is make sure i get enough sleep. sitting here typing this at 1:56am isn't a good start, but it's gonna have to happen sooner or later. anywhere from 6 to 8 hours a night should be good enough for me.
lastly, i'm gonna have to come up with some kind of exercise regimen. i used to play tennis rather frequently, but the fall league has already started and i lost everyone's phone number that i used to play with. there's a pretty nice gym here at my apartment complex. i used to go there in the morning before work for half an hour, then in the evening for another half hour. i may start doing that. but while the weather is still nice, i may just do some running, or even walk the dog.
so we'll see what happens. my goal is to lose about 20-25 pounds. i don't wanna lose too much weight because then my head will look disproportionately huge.
oh, and if any of you have any suggestions or think i'm doing anything wrong, please feel free to chime in.
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restless

This New Ocean LP
the new album titled This New Ocean is now available as a FREE DOWNLOAD. after nearly a decade of writing and three years of recording, it's finally done. be sure to download it and tell all your friends.
check out elocine.net for download links and details.
the birch shells are a HUGE improvement over my old export kit, and the included sensitone snare is fantastic. throw in a great hardware package and you've got a near professional sounding (and looking) kit for under $1000. i also got a new A Custom Ping Ride to go along with the rest of my A Custom cymbals. the brighter tones of the birch shells really complement the cymbals very well.
- Mood:
tired
james and mikey were in the area on friday. i met up with them at hooters in norfolk. i somehow managed to get pretty damned lost trying to find the place, but thanks to GPS, i finally made it there. it was kinda cool because i felt like i was in south jersey for a few hours, but i wasn't nearly as impressed by the "service." afterwards, james came back to my place and crashed for the nite. he left early the next morning.
eric and tim over at amplifiedpodcast.com have been cool enough to feature our song golightly in their latest podcast episode (#17). i came across their podcast site at work one day, and it's really one of the best out there. i've listened to nearly every episode in their entirety and those guys truly have great taste in music. so head on over to their site and check 'em out.
the rest of the weekend was rather uneventful, so i decided to do a little recording yesterday. i ended up tracking another old song in my attempt to finish up a "best of" album of sorts. i originally put it on the experimenting with mercury EP, but i felt like i kinda rushed that version and never really got it to sound the way i wanted. so now i'm pretty satisfied with this one....
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"wait" by elocine
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carry yourself if they seem real--
dreams that throw you back for more.
but it's not worth crying for.
bury yourself with what you feel--
drowned in lies you can't ignore.
so say goodbye to all your tears before...
...you want so much more,
but you knew it's not worth waiting for.
so please... i'll be all you're wishing for.
still you give me more,
but to me, you're all worth waiting for.
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another cross-post from madam-im-adam.com
Fini!!
well... after hours of hard work and miller light... golightly is a finished project... we are officially only two songs away from our full-length album... and those two songs will have to wait until after christmas... so enjoy golightly... and have a very merry chrishanukwanzica (there, is that PC enough for everyone!?!)... seriously... happy holidays... and madam, i'm adam will return in the new year :)
later...
golightly (5:11, mp3)
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anyway, here's a quick rundown....
trip #1: i went home a day earlier than i had planned for thanksgiving. i left really late on tuesday nite and didn't hit any traffic whatsoever. wednesday consisted of helping nolan + colleen with a few last-minute preparations around their house, including the very awkward task of putting up curtains. thanksgiving day entailed about nine straight hours of food consumption. i stepped on the electronic bathroom scale afterwards and it just read "ERROR." friday nite was dinner at the clarke household. then we all went to the borgata, where i got drunk on wine (which i never do). i ended up buying the "borgata babes" calendar. the cashier questioned my motives and asked me if i was "going to go home and choke the chicken." finally, he wrapped up the sale, handed me my bag, and said "don't hurt yourself, now." i drove back to virginia very early sunday morning. i missed nearly all of the traffic except for one delay in maryland. they shut down 95 for about forty-five minutes while they cleaned up an accident and brought in a med-evac.
trip #2: i flew home the following thursday nite. on friday nite, we had a small get-together at nolan + colleen's house. pat, connie, and bru came over for some food, drinks, and a game of scene-it. me and bru managed to win the game while answering only about 20% of the questions correctly. it kinda reminds me of how we got through college. anyway, we went to the army/navy game on saturday. the first half was ok, then navy just blew the game out of the water. it was a fun experience, but it was so cold that my legs cramped up just from sitting there. i flew back to virginia on sunday morning.
trip #3: the final leg of "nelson tours the mid-atlantic region." after getting back to virginia on sunday, i worked three days and headed back up to the garden state on wednesday nite. on thursday nite, i went to the first of two fiona apple shows at the tower with pat and connie. while hanging out in the lobby, i ran into kelli rose. the last time i saw her was more than two years ago, when i randomly ran into her on the street while loading our gear up after a show. a detailed review of both shows is coming, but our seats for this one were in the very last row on the floor. it worked out nicely, though, because we could stand up and see over everyone. on friday, i went to lunch at pj's with john, james, nolan, and colleen. later that nite, connie and i went to the second fiona apple show. while hanging out in the lobby again, i ran into kevin. i'm sure it's been less than two years since i saw him, but it's still been a while. our seats for this show were closer, but we were farther off to the side. the setlist was the same, but it was much better show overall. a number of technical difficulties had plagued thursday's show and they seemed to iron out all the wrinkles for this one. ?uestlove made a couple guest appearances on drums, which was a pleasant surprise, albeit he is from philly. i spent the nite at nolan + colleen's house and the next morning, they had their new carpets installed upstairs. the three of us sat in the den for the seven hours it took them to finish the job. i mostly nerded it up and played flight simulator the whole time, but took a break to watch "mean girls" for the hundredth time. i drove back early sunday morning, missing any traffic, and made it home in just over five hours.
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cross-posted from madam-im-adam.com.
bonjour mes amis!
after finishing "irrational behavior," we were sort of wondering what the hell we were going to do next...but then the strangest thing happened..."love song for the hopeless"...we hope you like it...we obviously do, or it wouldn't be up :)
productivity is the nicest thing...
love song for the hopeless (4:00)
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this one brings the song count to seven. we're shooting for somewhere around eleven or twelve for the cd. i have to say that since we began recording, this one is definitely the "best sounding" so far, and also stands as my personal favorite (if i'm allowed to say such a thing). engineering and mixing-wise, i learn something new with each time that we record. it's been six months since i bought all that recording gear and i'm still quite amazed by it and totally satisfied. i'm sure that by now, it's almost paid for itself in terms of studio time. i just wish i could say that it's ACTUALLY paid for.
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cross-posted from madam-im-adam.com.
hooray...today is the one year anniversary of madam, i'm adam...this day last year, nelson and i wrote our first song (sleeper hold)...this day this year, we give you our sixth...it is entitled irrational behavior and should be available for download
here's to many more years of the best palindrome ever!!
irrational behavior (4:39, 160 Kbps mp3)
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(posted by leighann @ 5:32 PM)
the process was pretty straightforward, but there were certain things that just took a while. i started out by splicing into all the wires that i needed to make connections to. this was rather simple after finding various wiring diagrams on the internet. next, i installed the speakers. i tackled the rear ones first. those were simple. just a simple drop-in and they were done. the fronts ones were not so easy. a whole lot of dremel work was needed to get the components to fit. in fact, the battery for my dremel died after finishing the passenger side door, so i had to recharge it and do the driver side the next day. next, i mounted the amps to the back seat. this was a bigger challenge than i would have liked and i broke two drill bits in the process. after that, i moved on to all the wiring. again, a pretty straightforward job, only with a million different wires. the toughest part was getting the 4-gauge wire through the firewall. i'm guessing that took me a good hour or more. so after running all the wire and making the connections, i called it a day. saturday was spent finishing up the driver side door and cleaning up the installation as best i could, which meant trying to hide over a hundred feet of wire. once that was all done, i powered it up and wouldn't you know.... it worked in on the first try. finally, after some fine-tuning of the amps, i was ready to go.
anyway, here are the goods....
Alpine Type-S SPS-171A 6.5" Component Speakers (front)
Alpine Type-S SPS-570A 5"x7" Coaxial Speakers (rear)
Kenwood KFC-W3005 12" Subwoofer
MTX Thunder564 4-Channel Amplifier (cabin speakers)
MTX RT202 2-Channel Amplifier (subwoofer)
Q-Logic Sub Enclosure
Monster Cable 4-gauge Amp Wiring Kit
Scosche 8-gauge Amp Wiring Kit
Streetwires Fused Distribution Block
Scosche Distribution Block
Stinger Hyper Series 4-channel RCA Patch Cable
Streetwires Musica 200 RCA Patch Cable
(click pictures to enlarge)
splicing into the bose amp and wiring up the new amps....
all done, with carputer and sub....
tweeters mounted over the stock location....
and the sub....
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madam, i'm adam
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| imperfect shade when the carnival ends circle gets the square september sleeper hold |
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madam, i'm adam - "when the carnival ends" (5:56, 160 Kbps)
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on wednesday nite, josh + gina met me at my hotel. from there, we met up with matt at the cheesecake factory across the street for some dinner. the wait for a table was ridiculously long and we didn't end up leaving until after 11pm.
thursday nite, i met up with cathy and company at her house. from there, we went to dr. dremo's. jason, josh, gina, and matt ended up coming out too. it was a good time, just drinking and playing darts and sitting around. although, i probably should have eaten something for dinner. i ended up getting really, REALLY drunk and spent the nite at cathy's house. i puked about four or five times before finally passing out. at some point, i woke up and i was laying on the living room floor without a shirt on and i was freezing. then my alarm went off at 6am and i woke up on the futon. at that point, i had to head back to my hotel to pack up and check out. (sidenote: some time during the course of the evening, i lost my hat and my ring. cathy said she hasn't been able to find either. this kinda sucks because i just bought that hat and i've had that ring forever.)
friday was the last day of class. the morning was the final part of the lecture portion, followed by a two-hour exam in the afternoon. i was VERY hungover, so i pretty much slept through the entire morning. in fact, i feel sorry for anyone sitting around me since i hadn't showered or even changed my clothes from the nite before. but finally, i took the test and got the hell out of there.
i headed up to new jersey as soon as i was through with my test. the drive went very smoothly and i didn't hit any traffic at all. i got there a little before 4pm. later, a bunch of us went to get fitted for tuxedos, then went to pj's for some dinner.
on saturday morning, i played some tennis with james. then i went home and went swimming for a bit in my parents' pool. in the afternoon, i headed down to smithville to meet up with everyone following colleen's bridal shower. i've never been there before, but it was a neat little place. there are lots of little shops around there and the area is very pretty. afterwards, i followed nolan + colleen back to ventnor. we hung out at the house for a bit before heading out to AC. nolan, colleen, jen, sue, and i all headed to the quarter at the tropicana. after walking around for a little while, we ate and drank at ri~ra, which is an irish bar. it's pretty cool and exactly the kind of place i like to hang out at.
very early on sunday morning, nolan, john, and i played golf at green tree in egg harbor township. the weather was nice and the course is pretty decent. actually, we'll be playing there again on the day before the wedding. i haven't played golf in two weeks and it took me a while to get back into some sort of groove. but i eventually did and ended up with a 90.
i drove back to virginia very late last nite. i didn't get here until 3 o'clock this morning. so now i'm just taking it easy and enjoying my day off.
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i had dinner with cathy and her roommates. they made chicken fajitas and it was so fucking good. afterwards, we sat around for a while just drinking and talking before heading to the bar, where matt and brian met us. i did a shot of tequila with brian. i can't remember exactly what kind, but it was damn good. all in all, it was a fun nite. i don't remember what time we left the bar or what time i got back to my room. but i do know that the 45-minute drive shrunk to a mere 10 minutes without traffic.
tomorrow, we're all meeting up again for happy hour somewhere.
1) to the virginia department of transportation: if you're going to do construction, pick one spot and fucking finish it before starting on another section of road. don't fucking do construction in three different spots in succession, separated by only a mile. and that not only goes for 95, but for 64 also. i'd like to give you guys the benefit of the doubt and say that someone there has some common fucking sense.... or maybe not. could that be why the hampton roads area is ranked second in the nation as far as traffic goes?
2) people, if you're too fucking retarded to drive in the rain, then do me a favor and don't even get into your fucking car if you know it's gonna rain. or at the very least, stay out of the left fucking lane.
ok.... now that i've gotten that off my chest, why am i here? well, i'm finally taking the class that my job pretty much depends on. today went by pretty quick, which is always good. the information is certainly useful and i've already learned way more than i did in that class a few months ago.
right now, i'm sitting in my hotel room. it's a courtyard marriott and it's right across the street from tyson's corner mall and the building where i'm taking class. it's really nice and the area isn't too bad. plus, my room has high speed internet access. the only thing i hate about travelling is always having to eat out, especially since i've been making the effort to be more healthy. i've been playing tennis a lot lately and doing a bit of exercise. but that all went to shit after eating mcdonald's last nite and buying myself an entire pizza tonite. that was probably a big mistake. after only two slices, i felt like throwing up. but tomorrow, i'm heading to cathy's and we're going to make dinner. that should be nice and hopefully easier on the stomach.
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